I would like to share with you, the life of a perfectionist.
I have a demon inside of me, her name is perfection. Many of us have had our dealings with her, some more severe than others. She looks at other people and compares them to me. She wants to change my flaws to perfections. She wishes I would change into a better version of myself. She thinks I’m never good enough, pretty enough, or thin enough. She puts me down for being different. She laughs at my personality, she bullies my self-expression, she terrorizes my self-esteem.
This life of a perfectionist isn’t an easy one. She holds an impossible standard over my head that I will never be able to achieve. Nothing I do will ever be good enough, nothing I say will ever be good enough, I will never be good enough. You think, if I achieve a goal or a dream then I’ll be happy, but this perfection demon comes and tells you that it’s not good enough, it’s never good enough! “Try harder stupid.” “Is that all you got.” “Not good enough.” “NEVER GOOD ENOUGH!” It’s like World War III takes place in my mind, the perfection demon holds my self-love captive, kills my self-esteem, and throws a grenade at my heart. Perfection, you are evil. You camouflage yourself as a good thing, but your not! You take away from happy moments, you make me feel inferior, you tell me I can’t when I can, you put fear in me that something won’t turn out perfect. Nothing is ever perfect and that is how you keep me stuck. Always striving for perfection, never being good enough, always needing things to be just right. I can’t do it anymore perfection, we’re through! I’m giving up on this life of a perfectionist.
I’d like to share a little announcement. I announced this little announcement in my last post but this is the official announcement. I have decided to go in a different direction with this blog. I’m not going to write posts trying to write from a place of perfection. Not every day is candy canes and unicorns, (though that would be super dope) it’s just not realistic. So instead, I’m going to write life, as I experience it. All I know is my own experience and the things I’ve learned up until this point. If I can share something that will help others, awesome! My point is, I shouldn’t have to be perfect to offer someone else advice, or remind them how awesome they are. We can all take something from each other’s lives and to say that one has to be perfect to be credible is absolute bull poopy. It feels so good to write openly and honestly and not worry about what others think.
The definition of Music to my ears is something that is pleasant or gratifying to hear or discover. I named this blog Muzic to My Ears because of my love of music and because I saw the phrase as a metaphor for life. I threw in the “z” because my name is Zoe. So this blog will now and forever be me sharing things that are pleasant and gratifying to hear or discover, like a life lesson, or a trip to an exciting place, or an amazing song by an indie artist. Real, unbiased words by a perfectly imperfect girl. If you can take anything away from this post, please let go of perfection, if you’ve lived the life of a perfectionist than you know what I’m talking about; it will tell you that you’re not good enough, but you have potential. The real truth behind perfection is that you’ll never be good enough. So let go of the perfection demon, let her go terrorize something else, and just know that you are in fact, enough!
Live a life that’s muzic to your ears!
An imperfect girl named